Planting Myself at Green Mountain College

Yesterday I went to the spring Open House at Green Mountain College and after that experience I feel absolutely positive that I made the right choice in applying there. I love everything about this college! The professors were talking about how they care about their students and want to help them become the best they can possibly be. Current students talked about how close the campus community is. Nobody judges each other, and they are all one big welcoming family. Even just walking through campus, every single person I passed would smile and say "hello!" or want to start up a conversation that made me feel like I was truly important and worth paying attention to. 

Open House welcome gift: Tomato seeds! :) 

These seeds were planted with all my hopes for my college experience there for the next four years. And as these seeds grow, so will I. As these small, fragile tomato seeds start to sprout, branch out and become healthy, strong plants, I will grow and become the well rounded individual that I was meant to be.   

GMC seeds, soil blocks, and a dibble :) 

After yesterday I've felt so inspired. I was starting to give up on my writing and photography, but now I feel incredibly motivated to continue with my passions and not let anything get in my way. That's the other thing I love about GMC. It's an environment where people can explore their passions and do what they love without being criticized or told that they will never be successful with what they want to do. Professors there want to help students become successful no matter what their passions are. 

Tomato seeds planted in the soil blocks.

I feel like I'll be able to grow at Green Mountain College. I'll get stronger and be able to break out of my shell. I won't be afraid of everything, I'll get involved in activities, and be able to just be myself. 

I look forward to this incredible journey ahead of me! 

Fresh Air and a Bicyle

The sun is shining, there's not a cloud in the sky, and the temperature is almost 50 degrees. Today is an absolutely beautiful day. 

I've been looking forward to the spring weather for a while now. This winter seemed like it would never end! Don't get me wrong, I love snow, but after a while it tends to become unappealing. Once March comes around I prefer to start seeing life come back to all the trees, and to see flowers blooming again. 

I also decided to go for a bike ride today. I had forgotten how good it felt, it's been such a long time since I've been on a  bike! I seriously needed that dose of fresh air to clear my head and realize that it only gets better from here. 

Let Me Explain...

When I made it apparent that I wasn't going to be posting anything new on my blog for a while, I really wasn't in the most positive mind set. I had been beating myself up over stupid little things and it escalated to the point where I decided to stop writing completely. I simply gave it up because I told myself I wouldn't ever be successful anyway so why bother. That lasted for a few days, but nothing beneficial came of it. I found myself itching to write and I eventually couldn't keep myself from doing so. So many words poured out of me once I started to write again. It was like everything that I had been keeping inside my head for those few days needed to escape and be free. I know now that I truly could never give up my passion because it's a part of me. Writing is a prominent part of my existence that I would honestly feel lost without.

So that leaves the question about what to do now.

I must admit is that all the optimistic quotes and pieces of advice that I continuously posted about were an attempt to boost my self-confidence. I was sick of being negative all the time and feeling so miserable that I thought preaching positivity would eventually rub off on my own personal ways of thinking. For the most part it helped, but only when I was feeling in especially good moods. When I didn't post for days, weeks, months even, it was because I couldn't think of anything happy to write about. Then I continued to be miserable.

Well, I'm sick of being miserable. I'm going to start taking my own advice and try to find something hopeful in every day, no matter how horrible the day may have been. This is my senior year of high school. I don't want to ruin it and only remember having an awful time when I think back on it. I also don't want to be in a negative mindset as I get ready to enter college and chance missing out on new and exciting experiences.

So here it is. Time to start actually living the life I've been presenting all this time instead of only talking about it.

There will not be any more posts on the blog until further notice. 

So I've Read Another Great Book...

This statement is entirely, one hundred percent true. Whenever I pick up a book that completely captures my attention and seems to consume my life I have a difficult time adjusting back to the real world. This just happened to me after I read I've Got Your Number by Sophie Kinsella. 

Basically the main character Poppy, feels so lucky to be marrying her dream man until she loses the engagement ring in a hotel fire drill. Not only that, but she loses her cell phone that same day. She finds an abandoned cell phone just sitting in a trash bin that she immediately takes for herself and uses until she can get her own back. The phone she finds happens to be a company phone that a PA just tossed aside when she quit, so all emails pertaining to businessman, Sam, are there for Poppy to read. Sam of course wants the phone back, but Poppy refuses and bargains to forward all important emails and calls to him if she can keep it until she finds her ring. Poppy snoops through all the emails of course and finds out a lot about Sam's personal life, and eventually becomes involved in helping solve a major company scandal. She has to deal with all that along with wedding preparations and mysterious behavior from her boyfriend. 

It was a fantastic book! From the minute I picked it up I couldn't put it down, and when I eventually had to, it was all I could think about. The characters are all so real. There's also different parts of this story to follow along with as you read too which made it even more exciting. There's Poppy's problem of trying to find her lost engagement ring while hiding this fact from her boyfriend, the company scandal she gets sucked into, and mixed emotions. It's a sort of love story and a mystery all wrapped up into one. Then events seem to be going in one direction and then something entirely different happens which will make you go, "WHAT?!" multiple times throughout it. (In a good way!) The only part I wasn't too particularly fond of was the  f-bomb being dropped continuously throughout the novel, but it doesn't ruin the story at all. That's a personal complaint I had, but its very minor. 

So, check this book out! 

One Less Obstacle

Today my Introduction to Speech teacher told us to all link arms in a circle. Then she told us we were all connected and would be going through the very last speech of the course together, as one. It was powerful because we all went into the class not really knowing each other, and by the end we've become a big family who supports each other and doesn't judge, and realizes that we are all human so we make mistakes. We had created a comforting environment.

I can't believe I'm actually going to miss class, when in the very beginning I wanted to drop it so I wouldn't have to go through with the torture of getting up in front of the class to talk for an extended period of time. 

It's amazing how much I have changed since that very first class. I completely freaked out when I had that first speech where I had to compare myself to an inanimate object. And that was only for two minutes! I pretty much read off of my note cards and barely made any eye contact with the class. I also talked really really fast because I was so nervous. After giving that speech I dreaded the rest of the course. 

Then here it is, roughly five months later and I'm getting up ON STAGE to give an inspirational speech for eleven minutes. This time I wasn't crippled by nerves. I was actually excited to get up there and talk! 

I'm honestly proud of myself for sticking it out and not dropping the class when there was a chance to. I had enough courage to get over my fears of public speaking. If I can conquer a fear that had consumed a large part of my life for so long, then I can pretty much do anything I put my mind to.

I know it may not seem all that important, but to me it makes a huge impact because there is one less obstacle on the path on this journey of mine.

   

A Very Brief Post

Seriously, though. Always be awesome. Happy Friday!